Life With Sulis

Hi guys, I know i know its been forever since i posted but I needed some time to deal with recent events. There are still lots and lots of changes ahead but I think I can get through them with the help of friends and family. I want all of you to know that you have been great and even if I havent told you how much I appreciate everything yo'all do for me I do truly truly apreciate it. I once thought I was all grown up but in the last few weeks I realized I wasnt as grown up as I thought I was. Growth has always been a slow and painful thing for me but I am growing. I dont have a choice. I am responsible for my own decisions and must deal with those consiqences. I am truly sorry for anyone who I have hurt along the way. I really never ment to hurt anyone. But as Soulhuntre once said and man am i paraphrasing because unlike Soul I dont have a complete archive of everything that has passed my computer. Good intentions do not negate your responsiblity for your bad decisions. I believe he used the analogy that kimi knew that he liked to have a coke at a certain time every day and so kimi trying to please him set an open coke on his desk so it would be ready for him when he wanted it. But because she had not thought clearly about where she put the coke, Soul spilled it when he threw his paperwork on his desk as he walked in the room. (Kimi I was just using you as an example because he did it prolly never happened because we all know you would never make a rookie mistake)

Anyways, I have a whole lot of stuff to put up because I have been doing a lot of thinking about a lot of things including my goals and wants and desires. I have learned alot about what makes me tick lately. I'm starting to remember who it is I am, and that is a very nice feeling. I havent had much time for friends lately and I hope none of you feel like I am ignoring you because believe me I am ignoring noone. I am just spending my time working on the core situations of my life. Its a do or die situation and other peoples lives hang in the balance. I want to make the right decisions. Some are really hard to make. Do you go with your heart or your head. well enough for now I have tons to do love and kisses sulis

posted by digitalsulis @ 8:23 AM