Life With Sulis

Where is everyone? Seems like our little family is drifting away. Course my emial has been acting screwy so if you have emailed me within the last few weeks. Please forgive me for not responding. I get alot of blank emials and ones I can't read and I know I am not getting all of my mail. Sending stuff out seems to be working off and on. But anyways. the last few weeks have been hard. been really sick. Been really sad. Been really lonely. Have 2 jobs now. teaching and telemarketing. I love teaching, telemarketing can go to hell. I want to say everything is going well and for the most part it is I have a place to sleep food and my beautiful children, that in itself is a huge blessing. But I find myself wanting more. I want to be loved like I love other people. To be loved unconditionally not just when I am doing things the way they want me to do them. I am not saying I want someone who will let me walk all over them. If you know me you know that would never work for me. I like very dominate men. I can't stand when a man doesn't have a clue what he wants or needs. I want someone who will treat me like the queen to his king. Is that such a bad thing? I am not one to go form man to man. hell I have been married most of my life. Flirting is one thing but a relationship and sex is entirely another. So I sit here wondering what the hell I am going to do. I guess just focus in on my self and hope someone realizes that I am here. Well at least I live somewhere where there are a lot of good looking white boys.( did i mention i have a thing for white boys) Anyways. so that is why I have not been around much. Just trying to survive in a world that doesn't want me to survive in it. I guess I am not your average woman. If i ever wrote down what i really want out of life you would all think I was completely insane. But then again maybe i am. On that note....... bye, love and kisses sulis

posted by digitalsulis @ 7:21 AM