Life With Sulis

Ok people post more. I NEED to know what is going on. I guess I am feeling a little bit needy lately. I am trying desperately to get back to a healthier way of life. This means way more balance in life. I am losing weight and really I am not doing anything more then I was before. Except drinking more water and going to sleep when I feel tired. I joined a gym a while ago and with the help of a personal trainer have developed an exercise program that works for me.

I am really conflicted right now because I am moving ahead and I am not sure where that is leading me. There are whole parts of my person who want to settle down and be the princess and do the whole Stepford wife thingy. But there is a whole other side of me that really wants to go out and explore the world and take it by force. I guess it is why I have kept Digi and Babyd around for so long. They both give me something to feed both sides of my personality. Unfortunately, they are two different guys and as such incompatible with long term relationship as such that I ultimately am looking for. If they just had one of those machines like on WOW that transforms you into something else I could stick them both in it and maybe come up with the perfect man. Damn did I type that. I am getting brave in my old age. Where do I find a house that this whole thing could work out in. I need my friendship, pampering, and adventure but I also need the stability, family, and sex. Yes, sorry sis but sex is still very important to me. Why the hell do you think I have a 25 year old boyfriend?

Speaking of them, Digi is having trouble with the mcp exam. In reality it is just that he doesn't want to do it. He thinks that it will tie him down to being a tech for his entire life. Which personally I think is bullshit but what do I know. He is trying to get info on being a QA specialist. That job would be right up his alley as he loves to pick things apart. They call him cap boy because he can spot a busted capacitor on a board from a mile away. It is really rather funny. As for Babyd, he is drowning himself in what he loves. His schedule just added hockey. I can't wait till his first game. I have been waiting forever to watch him play hockey. He is really good on the ice. He took me and kids skating. The baby hurt himself but hey it was fun. This means that the only day he is not playing sport till like midnight is Sunday. Can you believe that he has asthma so bad that it once literally killed him? I am so glad god decided he didn't want him that day. I don't know what I would have done for the last 7 years without Digi and Babyd.

On other wierd news, Tal and I are actually getting along. He has a girlfriend that is a special ed teacher so maybe that is the reason. ::winks:: She is really nice to the kids and that is all I ask. We are all going out for lunch this weekend. I can't believe it he is getting rid of his bike. He says he doesn't have time to ride it anymore and he wants something more "family". hmmmm not going there. Anyways so that is a nice change.

On the home front i am happily awaiting my trip. I am getting things together. I was thinking about making a couple of outfits. I am just not sure what I am going to do. I want to do too many things and its just not possible to do them all. I am making small but meaningful changes in my life. It’s time to grow up. I am not really ready but I have to. I can't stay little sulis forever. No matter how badly I want to.

Kimko, animal, Digi and I (and soon Soulhuntre) are playing wow on the Sin Jin server (yes I know that is not how you spell it so sue me)I love it. We have a vent server now so maybe it will be like old times and kimi and I can yell back and forth to each other over the computer. Man those where simpler times then. Talking to her last night reminded me how much I missed just shooting the breeze with her. PUT YOUR CAM BACK UP DAMNIT.

Well, I better get my butt to work. I added posting to my list of things to do so hopefully you will get at least one a day. Love y'all. Laters!

posted by digitalsulis @ 9:35 AM