As for my response I agree with some but not all of your statements. I have never thought of my children as belongs or I would have done some rather drastic albiet stupid for my children things to get them back with me. The truth is they are still too young to have a choice in this matter. Giving them a choice is too much pressure. They love us both. It should be OUR decision not theirs. I hope that at some point you can look past all this and learn to deal with me in a way that you do not feel like I am picking on you or that you do not feel like I am doing something wrong all the time. I know and understand your point of view. Its not mine. That is why I am not with you, I know their are several people who would like to see us put this aside and get back together. But to use an often used anology there has been so much water under this bridge it has become so rickety we are both to scared to use it anymore.
I do care about you. I wish you would understand things and get over this its my way or no way thing but that is after all who you are and I accept that. If you wish to talk to me on the more personal matters please call or email me. I try very hard not to sensor this site. In the whole time it has been up I have only removed one post and it was because it was an out right flame on another member. You have your right to your opinions and I have my right to mine.
As for me blowing smoke up everyones ass. Where have I ever said "Sulis perfect, Tal asshole" As you said everyone who matters knows my imperfections and yours. I have never hidden the fact that I have made some monumental mistakes when I was with you. Mistakes that hurt everyone. I don't hide my issues. I am dealing with them. Unfortunetly, at this time you are unable to objectively see that. Hopefully, in time that will change.
One last thing, I HAVE made some stupid choices in the last year. And they have effected my children. But I made the choices based on the best information I had at that time. I wonder what decisions you would have made based on the same information. Its easy to second guess things once you know the outcome. I honestly hope you never have to make the decisions I have had to make.
As for other news. I finally got the approval on the stint removal. Should be sometime this week. Woohoo. No more pain. Have the fun once a year gyno appointment today. God I hate speculums. Should be getting my depo shot again. Wondering, if being on it will cause me to want sex more. Life is complicated enough without having that kinda pressure to add to it. But its nice to not have to worry about things if they come up and not to have to have the dreaded P word. King thanks for dropping me a note. Missed ya. Babyd hope you got that egg for me, and thanks for always being there for me. Poma it was nice hearing your still alive, although shocking to hear your voice on my message machine. Strawberry, are you still working on the flight fund? Have to work this week. Putting the baby in school today then have to work on the two insurance sites. Have been stalling on them but they absolutely need to get done. I need the money. probably be in the pt office wed and fri. tues and thurs probably be at the Telemarketing site. Don't know what will happen this weekend. Thinking about heading out to Phoenix to get the rest of the stuff. we will see. well gotta get going. Time to start this muther.
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