Life With Sulis

Dark Days: Seems some dark days have fallen over alot of people I know. Everyone seems to be questioning who they are and why they aren't the people they had hoped they would be 10 years ago. Chuckles, maybe the secret of being really happy is just not giving a fuck. Just a thought. Hey, I am realistic I know I could never not care. But I know that I am not happy when I can't be in a position to help. Made me realize that although what I do is generally good. Its not really selfless because I get so much out of it its actually very selfish. I want to help people because it makes me feel good to know I helped someone even if that person doesn't know that I helped them. Its not the gratitude but the idea that something I can do can make a difference in someone elses life. Maybe I have a inferiority conplex. I like to help other so I don't feel like the loser I actually am. who know I don't think that it really matters much in the long run. I know I will always be looking at myself wondering what I can do to be a better person. To do things better. Am I obsessive about it. Damn probably so. Oh well. sue me. I have stuff to do just was thinking about some of my favorite men and made me think about cleaning up ones act. Anyone else want to share some thoughts on things they are doing to improve themselves. Or some thoughts on things they need to work on. step up.. you can do it.. smiles well back to work. love ya sulis

posted by digitalsulis @ 3:26 PM