Life With Sulis

Decisions decsions Decisions: Have you ever had to make a decisions you know is right but it sucks anyways? These last couple of years have been like that I have had to make decision to do and not do things that really sucked, but they where the right things to do. I have a certain code of conduct rules to my life that I just can't ignore. The code is telling me I need to be somewhere I really don't want to be because its where I need to be. Circumstances are such that I am going to have to face this one alone. Its frustrating and it hurts. So much time wasted over things that should have never been an issue. I have to inturupt my life once again to deal with this. I am done fighting It end now and here. When cross that state line into Arizona my purpose is clear and true. To clean up the mess that is my life. To find the life that is ment to be mine. I deserve to have happieness in my life and with all the bullshit hanging above my head I can't do it. I can't let go I can't give what I need to give.

Digi, I do love you. There I said it in front of everyone. Leaveing is going to be the hardest thing I have had to do In a year or so. And you know that things have been fucking hard so that is saying alot about what you mean to me. I hope that when I am not here it will give you the freedom and time to learn your path. I'm not afraid of where it is going to take you. I know where your heart is. Confidence and hope is hard to come by when you deal with all that has to do with me and my current life. Find them and live because that is all I have ever wanted for you and you know it .

posted by digitalsulis @ 6:06 PM