Life With Sulis

Hmmmm... Beauty, in the eyes of poma:

Physical appearance is the last thing on my mind at any given time. Period, end of discussion. ... unless i feel like i'm being scrutinized by another on how i appear, then, tis only my own physical appearance that i am concerned with. I think, i have made myself numb to outward appearances that people attempt to mask themselves with. I have a few reasons for doing this... and a few ways that i have gone about doing it. The most apparent reason for doing so is that, paying attention to the physical only detracts from my concentration of studying a person psychologically. When i first meet someone, i study, quite closely, his/her mannerisms, speech, and analyse why that person is doing these things. This helps me to relate better with them, and i get to cut through the crap of wasting time on no-brained dimmed-wits. I haven't found my 'loser' radar, to shut it off yet.. but that's another story.

Anyways, in short... it is the study of people that draws me back to someone, not their appearance.. and it is the interest level that i find in them that intrigues me. True beauty is established after i know s/he is truly beautiful.

My philosophy on how i present myself to others: though i am very self concious about my looks.. my appearance does not matter too much at all to me.. i try to please those who emphasize appearance by 'doing myself up' when i'm around them. But if it were up to me, i would dress down, almost looking like a sloppy, yet clean, person... in fact, this is what i did all through high school... dressed a little hippyish. And when my mom would ask me why i didn't dress nicer i would say, "If people can't get past what i'm wearing, or how i do my hair, or what shoes i wear, to see who i really am under-neith, then i don't really want to know them." ~ I live by this now, and apply it to people i meet.

Anyways.. i could go on about this for days, but i'll spare you. :)

posted by PoMaBear @ 6:44 AM