Life With Sulis

Friends, introspections,frustration,anger and angst: Seems that Dark Sir opened up a deep wound with alot of us. To be honest I find friendship, love and family both extremely fullfilling and utterly frustrating. Your friends and family constantly bring you joy and at the same time tear at your heart. Little wounds that never seem to heal. Spend more time with me, (complete with sad faces you all know who you are children and adult alike), work harder need more money, be happy, be healthy, Is it possible to feel and do all this at the same time. Frustration, anger and sadness seem to be hanging over me right now. The season and hormones playing a huge part in this party but there is so much more. I NEED to be SUPERWOMAN. I need to make my family happy. Fuck weather I am happy, its them that matters. I dragged them into this place we call my life some by choice others by birth in the end it doesnt matter I am responsible for it all. Makes me think how do others deal with the constant tugging in opposite directions. Do you lash out, cry, beary(spelling was never my strong point)yourself, RUN AWAY, run to shelter, scream, fight, laugh, what is it that helps you cope with anger and frustration? When someone you love pulls at your heart, or rips at your soul? When the ones we love disappoint us? IS there a right or a wrong way? The law says..... Well the law is the law I dont want to hear that. I want to know what heals your heart what cleanses your soul when the blood and mud of life have baked on to it?

posted by digitalsulis @ 9:27 PM