Life With Sulis

Friendship ehhh???? this subject is near and dear to me. Mainly because I am always getting asked by certain poeple who will remain nameless if I even have any real friends. He calls anyone I call a friend an acquaintance. Of course He thinks his friends are all real friends. Typical asshole male. BUT beyond that normally I just blow him off. I know I have a really good mix of friends who love me and take good care of me. There has been those times that I have questioned our friendships. T will tell you I have called him more then once crying my eyes out questioning my friendship with kat. For a long time she refused to give me a key to her house and has told me on more then one occasion that if I needed a place to go I could not stay at her house. Now this hurt me really bad because We have been friends for almost 16 years and I have always been there for her even when It was really hard to be there for her I was. To me I was feeling abandoned. Now what really hurt was that she let like 3 other people into her home and gave them all keys and they where people she had met maybe a week before. It hurt me so bad I wanted to cry and cry. Since then Kat and I have worked through this issue. Some of it was a misunderstanding some was my being too much of a mommy and trying to make things perfect for her when she wanted to do it herself wrong way or not. and part was her mother. (that is a whole nother story) but needless to say we are still best friends.

So after all that what i think of as a friend is someone who is there for you even when its not convient. Who will wake up in the middle of the night and hold your hair for you while you puke because you are too sick to do it yourself. Someone who will share their last dime,piece of bread, or the clothes off their back if you need it. makes me wonder HOW good a friend are all of you?

posted by digitalsulis @ 11:14 PM