Life With Sulis

Manic Mon....Wednesday?: Well today kinda sucked. I think that I am passing a kidney stone agian. That makes it number 5 or 6 in the last year and a half. Spending some time with Babyd getting things straight in my head. He is a great sounding board. Never judgemental and he doesn't try to solve all my problems by telling me how fucked up I am. I already know that. Got alot of work done today. spent the day obsessing about different things. I do that alot. I analyze the shit out of things. I looked at everything I was doing and started makeing lists. This is where the obessesion comes in. Well it was then I realize that my life was spiralling slowly out of control. You see I never go anywhere without my dayrunner or a binder. I write shit down. I make lists. When I don't do it I lose stuff. I lose control of where I am and where I am going. I have no direction.

On the way here from Texas I lost my dayrunner. I feel lost without it. So thank to babyd I am going to get all back in control. He is getting me a cool new program for keeping my dates and bills and stuff. I thought about it and I have had a lot of mail lately about liking hearing more about me. I considered it alot because letting people know you makes you vunerable. But then again. I grew up and firmly believe that you shouldn't do anything in private that you wouldn't want other people to see and know you are doing. So As of right now unless I chicken out I plan to add my Massive ADHD page. It will be all the list and wierd comments that pop up in my head. Warning its choatic and messy in there. Not at all a place for anyone faint of heart. You might learn more about me then you really wanted to know.

Maybe you all can help me complete some of my lost projects. Keep me on the straight and narrow so to speak. And for those of you inclined to put your negative 2 cents in. Let me say this right now. If you dont like what i have to say GO AWAY. Don't message me or email me or whatever I don't want to hear it. So if you want to tell me I am too fat, crazy, lazy, stupid, **enter your own negative adjective here** tell it to someone else.

Wish there was a way to just do a brain dump....... God I can't wait for that usb cable connection for my brain. Upgrade of memory and storage space would be nice too. Its coming I know it is. I have faith. Resistance is Futile!

posted by digitalsulis @ 12:28 AM