Life With Sulis

Hi guys! I am sitting here moping because I don't have the money and noone has the time to go with me to see kimi on sunday. This sucks so badly. The one chance I get to visit with her and I cant go she is only 6 fucking hours away.Sometimes I feel like Cinderella. Chuckles ok that was just pathetic. I want to go so bad but I guess I just need to save up my money and just go visit her in jersey. Besides then I will have them all to myself. Ok mostly to myself.

I spent a good part of the last day crying. The money situation is getting so bad I am afraid that I am gonna lose my car. D_z family can't help me out anymore they are having their own problems. I love them for all the help they have given me so far. I wish I could live up to everything they want for me. I feel like a fucking failure. I can't find a job. I am behind on all my bills. If it where not for D_z and his family and Talent I would be on the streets with no car, no food, no nothing. I guess this is just a lesson I need to learn.

On a brighter side. I want to say Thanks to Lexa for chatting with me the last couple of days. I know I am hard to talk to right now and I tend to ramble and wonder when I speak. I really needed to talk. It is hard keeping all my thoughts inside my head. It hurts.They don't seem so horrible once I let them out. Lexa I just want to say thanks for believing in me and making me feel like I CAN do it.You are a great friend. oh and thank you for the websites. I might have found a couple of good leads off of them. I appreciate any help i can get.

I have been working on the website. being proded to put my cam back up. The pick is a year old.I am working on it. But the camera I do have is on the kids computer. the current computer I have does not support my capture card. damn via chipset. Intel doesnt play nice with others. I hate the other monitor it is small and green and makes me have a headache when i sit at it. Hopefully I will get my act together and will either have a new monitor out there or a new motherboard in here so I can chat and be on cam at the same time.

Been keeping myself busy working on a football website. My old obsessions have served me well I supposed they can server me again. I thought I may be able to reuse some of my old site but none of the links are current. so its off to the drawing board. So if you know of any football related sites. Have a football team you want to see on the net. send pictures, video, stories, links whatever to me. I want to see this site grow to being the biggest football site out there. ITs not hard to do when you are as obsessive about football as i can become. Like my header says. MORE FOOTBALL: Live, Eat, Drink, Sleep, Football because its not just a sport its a way of life. Those of you have had caught the football bug know what I mean by that. Like the bald Angel, Football will never be done. He will be 85 years old out their coaching peewee football because he is to frail to deal with the big boys.


To my old Vipers I know you are out there. Sorry I haven't answered your mail or calls. I miss the job, I miss you guys. Its just hard to think about knowing that the law right now makes it impossible to work with you guys. I hope all of you do good and yes I am working on the site (see note above)

Well I guess I better get myself going. I have tons of shit to do today. Sorry kimi. I really wanted to see you. Maybe you could lay over in phoenix. heheeh just kidding. Have a great time and I will be content with the pictures.And Soul your wrong Kimiko is not the luckiest human on the planet You are. But I gather from your post that you finally get that.

That makes me thinks I miss my sisters, my real ones and my acquired family. Poma keep your head up. Thanks for the info on the job your an angel. Kat I hope you never forget how much I care about you. I wish you all the happiness in the world. I know you will find it. Hope you are having fun at Tnt's place. kisses and love sulis

posted by digitalsulis @ 7:16 AM 0 comments

WARNING THE FOLLOWING IS A RANT ! PLEASE DICONTINUE READING IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO HEAR ABOUT STUPID PEOPLE!

Someone please explain to me why it is that human beings can not understand the basic concept that if we all worked together and used or individual assets for the betterment of the group as a whole we will all be much happier. How come it is such a hard concept. So many people would reather suffer then have to give just a little. I see it everywhere. It even frustrates me in my own family. I can see all kinds of things that would work out so much better if everyone just helped a little. If poeple would just work together to get to where we need to be. I mean fuck we are PACK ANIMALS. So many of us are just defective becuase in a pack we would not servive. WE all want to be the lone hunter/ess. To have no responsibility for the others. People I beg you before this day is over look at your assets and look at them carefully. You will see that most of your true assests are really your friends and family. Learn to cooperate with them and do your part.

thank you for your time and attention sulis

posted by digitalsulis @ 5:51 PM 0 comments