Thursday, June 12, 2003

could things possible be more annoying or out of sorts. I hate money. I hate all this shit. I just want things to work out. No money no transportation and things get fucked. I want my life back. What was I thinking about? Somethings are probably best left unsaid. Had a blast parading at fighter practice. Enjoyed meeting the family with mrF I forgot how much i missed hanging with him. Kept my mind off the current trouble for a least a few hours. I love my apartment but what is the point if i can't get anywhere or get my things out of storage. fuck fuck fuck this is pissing me off. Well that is enough venting. will try to come back with a better attitude. IF anyone knows someone who is willing to lend me some money for about a month while i get things back up and running Feel free to email me at liltexan81@hotmail.com. Barring sex and some illigal things bargain with me maybe i have something or can do something for you for the money. You would be on my favorite people list for life. Giggles sulis is desperate points at the donations accepted here paypal button. on the side of the blog. End shamless begging. I will regain my honor on the next go. hugs and kisses sulis

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Tuesday, June 10, 2003

Todays horoscope seemed apropo:

Virgo (August 23 - September 22)
There’s a stable flow of energy in your life behind the surface noise. It may feel like you want one thing yet have to do something else, but it’s really not a big deal. From time to time, we all must make difficult choices. The good news is that this decision isn’t really all the tough to make. In your heart, you know what you want, even if others aren’t fully cooperating. Hold to your direction. Others will come around just in time.

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Ok I am all moved in to my new place. Gotta get some money together to pay some bills. So if anyone knows of anyone who needs some webdesign work done or anyone in the phonix metro area who needs computer training email me asap. I now have my cable modem back up and running. Thanks to everyone who has helped out by listening to me freak out over the last month trying to figure out where I was going and what I was doing. I am feeling a lot calmer now. Still not completly happy because I just don't know how to make everyone happy. Someone is going to be upset no matter what i do. I don't know what I am thinking I already knew the answer to the question just hiding from the answer. Honestly, I wish everyone could just get along and play nice. And i do mean everyone. Big girls and little boys included. yall know who I am talking about. I just can't think of a reason to be pissy at anyone. There is a place for everyone and everyone has a place. Find yours and deal with it. Yall know who and what I am. Yall know what I want. get with the program so we all can live happy ever after.

That being said. Thanks to Coffeetaster for checking in on me you are a doll. Here is to hopeing your girl follows what i said above. Life is to short to not get along. To ochre and the maiden, thanks for working with me. You have no idea how comforting that has been. Thank you for not being offended by my tears or my irrational behavior over the last few weeks. giggles some stories are just best left untold. wink! Knowing you guys are close makes being alone seem so much easier. Babyd hope you are having a blast with your girl. Bring me back pics. You promised. WIthout you I could never had made this step. You have been my strength and my confidant. I know you know how important you are to me. In ways I can't explain. You are my best friend. Thank you for being tough with me and for helping me find my way out of my self imposed exhile. Someday I hope i can make it up to you. chuckle i know i know money would be good. I'm working on it geesh. To cowboy your not broke. Your just growing up. I am actually really proud of you. Things will get better. I promise. You know how to get ahold of me if you need to talk. To the little girl. someday you will be a little more organized. I am proud of everything you have accomplished in the last year. Keep it up and don't let yourself backslide. I want to see a invitation in my mail in the next couple of years. I have always believed in you. I am just happy to see that you are starting to believe in yourself. To my long lost baby things will get better. you knew it was comming. distance never works. suck it up and move on. I love you with all my heart and deep in your you know that. Do what it is that I left you there to do. To my babysis love ya miss ya hope everything id going well the baby is adorable. thanks for the pic of daddy. To digi only you know the right thing to do.

to those long lost sulisvision people where the hell are you email me send up a smoke signal or whatever just do it.

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