Life With Sulis

I have recieved a few requests about what I really want and what I would accept. No you may not buy me a new monitor its too expensive of an item. But you can get me the planets cd http://music.barnesandnoble.com/search/product.asp?userid=53DGFQ8B7O&ean=724355731623 This cd is awsome and it comes out on the 11 go there and sample the music. Big warning its classical with a slight twist. Gift certificates to book stores especially hastings and barnes and noble are always appreciated.oh and a quick shout to deth the pics where cool thanks. Gotta love neuru. Too bad she is gone. laters sulis

posted by digitalsulis @ 6:56 PM 0 comments

Midlife crisis and other wierd hormonal shifts:People who deal with me on an everyday basis have seen some rather wierd changes occur in my life in the past month or so. For the past few years i had wallowed in a sort of haze of self pity and fear. I was afraid to do anything but the most basic things that where so monumental as to need to be done or cause physical or emotional damage. It was debilitating and i realized it kept me from loving the people I wanted desperatly to love. I kept me from completing the things that made me life worth living. I would love to sit here and say that everything is fixed and I am suddenly zen like in my perfect persona but we all know that is impossible. I have a long long road to go before I can even say I made good progress. But I am learning and to me that is the most important thing right now. The following two songs kinda spoke to me. I have to believe that there is a reason why things always fall apart just when I think that they are going well. I have to believe that if i stick it out and stick to my beliefs and my morals that things will eventually work out. I hope that all of you in my family now know that I love you. that i have always loved you and that will never change no matter what is happening in my life at the time. That is UNCONDITIONAL. I know that you will all eventually hurt me in some way and that is ok I know that eventually it will work itself out.

I'm A Survivor (Jo Dee Messina with Brad Johnson)

I was born a believer, biggest dreamer this world has ever seen
Ready to face most anything but learn that I was naive
Ran into things in life that I never planned
But that's made me who I am
I've had highs and lows and seen my share of ups and downs
There's been nights it seemed there wasn't a friend to be found
I've had to save myself from drowning in a sea of tears.
But I'm still here

('Cause) I, I'm a survivor
I won't let it get the best of me, I'll try my very best to be that strong
Oh, oh, oh, I, I'm a survivor
And I'll never give up, never let out, never give in
I'll just keep moving on

Oh
I was taught that honesty was simply the only way
I've spoken honestly and had it blow up in my face
Sometimes I look around and I don't know what I see
But I gotta believe in God above and what he's made me

No
I've witnessed pride and ego destroy the kindest of hearts
Seen how gread can take the best of friends and tear them apart
Every corner, every turn, every lesson I have learned
Has helped me find my way

I, I'm a survivor
I won't let it get the best of me, I'll try my very best to be that strong
Oh, oh, oh, I, I'm a survivor
And I'll never give up, never let out, never give in
I'll never give up, never let out, never givin
Oh no I'll, I'll never give up, never let out, never give in
I'll just keep moving on
I'm a survivor
Oh yes I am

Was That My Life

I don't want to be the one who's old before their time
And loose the wonder that I felt as a child
I can't run this race believing I might loose
There's still so much to see, so much left to do
Yes I'll fall before I fly
But no one can say I never tried
Oh we just get one
Ride around the sun
In this dream of time
It goes so fast
That one day we look back
And we ask...

Was that my life
I close my eyes and think how lucky I have been
To hold the ones I love and share my dreams with them
All those sunny days and all those stormy skies
Good morning kisses and sweet goodnights
I can't tell them enough
Just how much that they are loved

Oh we just get one
Ride around the sun
In this dream of time
It goes so fast
That one day we look back
And we ask...

Was that my life
We just get one
Ride around the sun
In this dream of time
It goes so fast
That one day we look back and we ask...
Was that my life
Was that my life
Goin' on by
Rollin' rollin' rollin' by

Was that my life
Was that my life

have a great weekend, love and kisses sulis (still trying to fly,still flopping around on the ground)

posted by digitalsulis @ 6:07 PM 0 comments

Whooohooooo Snow Day!: School is closed we get to stay home cause the weather is so bad. with the windchill its about 16degrees. The roads are icy and its damn cold. We went to bingo last night. IT was fun but annoying. I was on (for those non bingo players it means I needed one number to win)every single game for at least 7 calls. Do you have any ideas how frustrating that is. The people next to me started rooting for me. It was funny we started chanting the numbers I needed. It didn't help though. Oh well. When we got out we went to the cars and a bunch of people couldn't get in their car. Their doors where frozen shut. we had to have someone come out and use a heat gun on them to get them open. I personally have never been in freezing rain. it was a wierd experience. Everything in me says if it is 16 degrees or lower outside you should have snow. SO someone explain why it was sleet and frozen rain. Did taxes yestarday I just may get my bills paid off today. won't that be cool.

Anyways I hope this note finds you all well. I have a ton of things to take care of today so I will be on off and on. Gonna play outside with the kids later. The ground is blanketed in white and considered the high is 31 degrees I think that it should stay that way for while.

Oh BTW welcome back to the USA Tats. Hope you had a wonderful trip. can't wait to see the pics. hugs

sulis

posted by digitalsulis @ 5:52 AM 0 comments