Life With Sulis

Had an interersting discussion on drugs today. I was asked why i dont do drugs. This person told me all the benefits of smoking pot. I kinda lauged because i would be lieing if i said i have never thought about what it would be like to be high. But the risks for me so outway the benefits I just cant imagine doing it. This particular person doesnt have anything to worry about with it because he has a licences to smoke it. Interesting concept you go to the state and apply for a licence to get high. Anyways what are you experience with drugs. I would love to hear your thought either way. DO you think its ok? DO you think its not ok? Email me or post something. Your funniest or scarest experience. I dont really have any other then to show you how seriously innocent i am My boyfriend was a drug dealer. I had no clue i dated him for almost a year. He would deal while i was there and I never new he was doing it. It wasnt till many years later that someone told me. Course he is in jail for drug trafficking now, well i will go for now. hugs sulis

posted by digitalsulis @ 9:43 PM 0 comments

thinking my life revolves around music heard this song today and it really said what i have been feeling this afternoon. Spent a frustrating morning trying to get things done. Accomplished alot today even though i am as sick as a dog. Feeling good about things now after tlaking to lexa and a couple of other friends. Realized things where not nearly as bad as they could be. The future is looking better and I am not feeling so lost. I hurt but I am feeling better about my decisions. Thinking alot may have hurt but they where for the best. ANd truly the only person i have to live with about my decision is me. It doesnt matter what anyone else believes I know the truth and that is all the matters. So BRING ON THE RAIN!!!!!!!

Another day has almost come and gone
Can't imagine what else could go wrong
Sometimes I'd like to hideaway somewhere and lock the door
A single battle lost but not the war
(cause)

Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain

It's almost like the hard times circle round
A couple drops and they all start comin' down
Yeah, I might feel defeated
I might hang my head
I might be barely breathing but I'm not dead

Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So brig on the rain

I'm not gonna let it get me down
I'm not gonna cry
And I'm not gonna lose any sleep tonight

Cause tomorrows another day
And I am not afraid
So bring on the rain

Tomorrows another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain

posted by digitalsulis @ 11:30 PM 0 comments

wanted to write something in here so everyone knows i am still alive. Have strep. trying to get my life together. These last few days have been a turning point in my life. I realized that my hopes that things would work out well are not going to happen. People want to believe what they need to believe to survive. I can't fight the deamons in others minds no matter how hard i try. I can only stand here and smile and try to act like all this doesnt make me sad. I moarn for a friend that has been in my life over half of it. I am sorry you feel that way about me and saddened that we can not let the pain go. Maybe someday buty not today and not anytime soon. So good luck and be happy.
So for now sulis is in cali looking for her place in the sun.

TIM MCGRAW LYRICS

"A Place In The Sun"

Long ago, far away
I felt your lovin’ glow upon my face
Was it a dream or just a promise made
What is my destiny

Someday I’ll find a way to shine
Leave all these rainy days behind
I know there’s got to be
Some place warm and bright for me
I’m running out of places I can run
Looking for a place in the sun

Darkness hangs overhead
Close to the point where angels fear to tread
I close my eyes and think of you instead
And pray you’ll be here soon

Someday I’ll find a way to shine
Leave all these rainy days behind
I know there’s got to be
Some place warm and bright for me
I’m running out of places I can run
Looking for a place in the sun

Sometimes it feels like this whole world’s against me
And every beaten path
Is just another winding road that tempts me
Far from you and all that’s true
I’ve got to find my way again

Someday I’ll find a way to shine
Leave all these rainy days behind
I know there’s got to be
Some place warm and bright for me
I’m running out of places I can run
Looking for a place in the sun

Yeah I’m running out of places I can run
Looking for a place in the sun
Oh, won’t you shine down on me Sunshine?
love and kisses sulis

posted by digitalsulis @ 9:34 AM 0 comments