Sunday, September 09, 2001

hmmm, seems that no matter how far away I go I cant seem to leave the drama behind. I moved 1000 miles to get away from the drama and stress I was living. The funniest part about it is that I used to get shit about always being in the center of things, but you know what Its not me being in the center of things that is the problem it is everyone and their mothers trying to get in my business. Nobody can leave well enough alone. Including my own mother. In actuallity them being involved would not be that big of an issue except that they want to stick their noses in but they never really check to see what the actual facts of the situation is. Everyone wants to speculate and figure out what my motives and needs are in every thing I do. Well let me give everyone a big clue here. My motive is to have some peace and happiness. To be able to go about my life mistakes and all without haveing a big problem with others. I say and do the tings I do because I want everyone to be happy. My biggest problem is not realizing that no matter what the fuck I do I CAN NOT please everyone. Their is always gonna be someone who is not happy with something I am doing. No matter what it is. So now I have to figure out how to do what I need to do. What is most important the happiness of one or the good of all. And how can I tell what those things are gonna be. Truely no matter what I do, I am the bad guy. So wish me luck. In a month I will either have everything I want or will be down to nothing. Either way things will be solved. hugs and kisses to everyone I havent talked to in a long time. I miss y'all. love sulis

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