Life With Sulis

lost and confused. Sitting here alone feeling lost and alone. Not knowing which way to turn and what to do next. My emotions are getting the best of me. everything is overwhelming me. Not sure what to say or do. God i hate this. Maybe I should have never had children. I am having such a hard time knowing what is best to do for them. SO much to think about. SO many issues to work through. I thought I had this all sorted out in my head before i got here. Now that I am here I am just not so sure.

posted by digitalsulis @ 7:17 PM 0 comments

hmmm god i wish people would just be honest. Makes me wonder if all guys are just out for a piece of ass. And they wonder why I cherish my platonic male relationships so much NO GAMES! I guess I am just wondering if I am doing the right thing. Not sure who to trust. Who to believe in. Obviously i can't believe my eyes or my ears. So do I trust my heart.

posted by digitalsulis @ 12:56 PM 0 comments

oh my this week has been a little scary. I have had some wonderful help from a few really awsome friends. Coffeetaster thanks for everything. Sorry i havent been around much. Thanks to Soul and kimi for taking a road trip for me and for getting me my book. You guys are awsome. i found this picture from a guy who emailed lately he is a great artist. check out the pic here. i want i want i want. well talk soon. laters.

posted by digitalsulis @ 7:04 PM 0 comments

Chuckles had a good day. Didn't get to play pool tonight but oh well. well talk later hugs sulis

posted by digitalsulis @ 12:58 AM 0 comments

Sulis' new attitude:
Well i am in phoenix and spending some time getting to know myself. Figuring out what I want and need without the distraction of others. Getting alot of pbulic attention which is really good on the ego. Nice to know i can still turn a mans head. Things are working out. I still ahve a ton of things to do but I have hope now. Hope for the future. Things are going to work out. I think they even might work out for the best for everyone involved who knows. All i know is i am off to clean up my messes.

Love's Got An Attitude (It Is What It Is): Amy Dalley.
Written by Amy Dalley.
(© Cumerland |Hmstein Music / Curb Songs.)
Single release, © 2003, Curb Records. From "Amy Dalley", due for release later this year.

Stumbled to Bongo Java for a cup.
They're out of my favorite beans: ain't that my luck?
The heater in my car's blowin' cold.
Got my divorce attorney on the 'phone.
Says: "Girl, I got your paper's ready."
It's the 14th of February,
An' all my girlfriend's got roses.

Love's really got an attitude.
It'll turn you on; it'll turn on you.
It's a sacred song in a wedding dress;
It's a tattoo you wake up with.
But love ain't gonna make sense.
It is what it is.

Kroeger has exactly what I need:
Ben and Jerry's and People magazine.
Walkin' in slow motion down my aisle,
It's a stranger with a "C'mon, get you some" smile.
He's so GQ, he could be gay,
His pick up line's borderline lame;
But he's a pilot an' that's hot.

Love's really got an attitude.
It'll turn you on; it'll turn on you.
It's a sacred song in a wedding dress;
It's a tattoo you wake up with.
But love ain't gonna make sense.
It is what it is.

Instrumental break.

Love's really got an attitude.
It'll turn you on, it'll turn on you.
If you have it, you can't hide it.
If you want it, you can't find it.
Thinking only complicates it.
You can lose it, you can make it,
But it ain't ever gonna make sense.
It is what it is.

Love's really got an attitude.

saw this and it says it all. Those of you who have spoken to me in the last couple of days know I have found my way. I know the road is hard and things may not work out the way I want them to. I have a ton of things to make up for. I have a ton of things to correct. But I know where my heart truly is. I had to know and now I do. The pain had to be there for me to learn. I guess i am just stupid that way. Like it says in my yahoo profile. "Only the insane believe that pain is a sign of progress guess I must be certifiable. Right Lexa" Making tons of progress cause I am almost at my limit of pain. Growing up sucks. Love sucks. Why can't you choose who you want to love. Wish me luck guys. ITs gonna be a bumpy ride.

posted by digitalsulis @ 3:45 AM 0 comments