Life With Sulis

Luck of the Irish: Today I had a serious craving for corned beef. So after making sausages and pest gnochi for lunch I put some corned beef on the stove to cook. The house smelled wonderful all afternoon. Had a pretty quiet day. It was nice. The Internet was down for a few hours so Digi and I played mech warriors while the girls and chance played cars and bob the builder. It divolved into a game of who can stand up the longest while being blasted. Pretty fun. Watched some Tv. And sent all the little people home. Now the kids asleep and I am off to do the same.

The little girl checked in. Glad to finally hear she made it safe. Take it easy on the way down.


well night all. sulis

posted by digitalsulis @ 11:37 PM 0 comments

Pretty Picture: Just a few pictures that where sent to me. I thought I would share. They made me feel good so maybe they will have the same effect on all of you.

The Future Miss Canada: Jaida (Jessie's Lil Girl)



Bat dog aka Karma (kat and Tnt's Rottie)


And her faithful sidekick bat puppy aka Jordan (Kat and Tnt's puppy)

posted by digitalsulis @ 3:00 PM 0 comments

Life moving on. Its time to get ready for school now. With all my Doctor's appointments things have been a little hectic lately. Hopefully that will all settle down in 2 weeks when school starts. I have to buy school supplies and school clothes still. I don't know how I am going to do all that but I will figure out a way. I always do. Still being watched by the doctors. Blood work still messed up. Still having alot of pain. Still have a kidney/bladder infection. lost almost 10lbs in the last week. So needless to say the doctors are just not tooo happy with me right now. Couple more rounds of blood work and another UA and one more round of antibiotics and things should be doing better. I hope so because I have to pay my rent and other bills. Doesn't look like I am going to get to do anything exciting for my birthday again this year. Seems like August 27th always seems to be a bad time of year. Specially since school is always starting and money has to go to the whole school stuff/clothes thing. Oh well maybe I will change my birthday to some other date next year. Or maybe I just wont have one anymore.

Well hope everyone is doing well. Send me an email or something. love ya. sulis

posted by digitalsulis @ 11:43 AM 0 comments

Hmmm, I have a personality?: Took this cute little test, just out of curiosity. This is what it said.

My personality is rated 32.

What does it mean: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

What is yours?quiz by midgetfarm.com

posted by digitalsulis @ 8:41 AM 0 comments

Beautiful memories: I tell you want ask my best friend and he will tell you I am a sucker for a serenade. It doesn't happen often and I will probably remember it for a long time. 2 years ago today I watched two girls give up there hearts completly to a small town boy quietly singing in the dark while holding their hands. It makes me warm just thinking about it. Thinking back at that moment made me think about what he was singing and that made me think about what love is. he sang:

Tim McGraw & Faith Hill It's Your Love Lyrics


Dancin' in the dark
Middle of the night
Takin' your heart
And holdin' it tight
Emotional touch
Touchin' my skin
And askin' you to do
What you've been doin' all over again
Oh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
I just gotta let you know
What it is that won't let me go

Chorus:

It's your love
It just does somethin' to me
It sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough
And if you wonder
About the spell i'm under
Oh, it's your love

Better than I was
More than I am
And all of this happened
By takin' your hand
And who I am now
Is who I wanted to be
And now that we're together
I'm stronger than ever
I'm happy and free
Oh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
And if you asked me why I've changed
All I gotta do is say your sweet name

(chorus)

Oh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think i can keep it all in
I just gotta let you know
What it is that won't let me go

(chorus)

It's your love
It's your love

Made me think about what love really is. When you can't think of anything but makeing that person happy. When you want to be more then you are. When you would walk miles in any weather just to be able to get that person what ever it is they want just to see them smile at you one more time because you know that even if you didn't give them that thing they would still love you just as much. Its knowing that its ok to just be and sometimes be doing other things and know that even if you are they are preoccupied with something else its ok because you both still love eachother. Its feeling a trust that grows to a point where you dont fear anything. ITs history and a future. Its NOW its all the little things that make life worth living. Love is not always perfect. Its not alway pretty. IT doesn't solve all problems but it gives you strength to endure. It helps you find the reason to move forward. It helps you find yourself because you stop searching for that peice your missing. Its all this and sooo much more. It isn't always close at hand and sometimes you lose it and find it again. But don't be blind to it. Don't be afraid of it. Because nothing is more sad then letting love slip out of your hands. .... unless of course you do it a few times just for good measure. giggles some people are just a glutton for punshment. smirk

posted by digitalsulis @ 4:21 PM 0 comments

It's a cats Life: Someone tell me when it became so hard to find a good home for a potty trained cat. When I moved into my current apartment I inherited 2 cats. They are sisters, cute affectionate, and potty trained. Unfortunetly they love sitting in the window sill. Now why you may ask is this unfortunate. Well the answer to that is two fold. The apartment charges 300 a pet which I don't have the money for. And it messes up the mini blinds which the apartment complex forces us to have. So I got a call from the apartment manger. Fix the blinds and get rid of the cats by the end of the week or pay 300 dollars and buy new blinds. I can't afford it.

So i have been asking everyone I know if they want a cat noone does. I can't just let the lose they are not fixed and I dont want to be responsible for their deaths or worse find them in my backyard with a huge litter of kittens. I found a no kill shelter but they charge 85 dollars to take both the cats. I don't have that much money either. I don't know what to do. Anyone know of a free place in Phoenix. message me or email me or call if you have my number.

posted by digitalsulis @ 9:04 AM 0 comments

Its all just an act - and other stupid assumptions: One of my favorite quotes ever comes from Shakespeare's Merchant of venice Act 1 scene 2. In it Portia says:

If to do were as easy as to know what were good to do,
chapels had been churches, and poor men's cottages princes'
palaces. It is a good divine that follows his own instructions; I
can easier teach twenty what were good to be done than to be one
of the twenty to follow mine own teaching
The Merchant of Venice by William Shakespeare: Act 1 Scene 2 - The Literature Page

Everyone keeps asking me what I feel what I think What I want. The truth is thought that they really don't want to hear what I have to say. They just want to feel good about themselves for asking the right questions. (now admittedly there are those out there that really do care and I know you all know which group you fall into, ignore the rest of this post if you know it doesn't apply to you) I don't want to be involved any more. Unless you really give a shit and you are not going to cause a problem for me in one way or another don't ask. I'm sorry I just can't deal right now.

The pain has become bad enough to warrent me being drugged most of the time and I am still not very comfortable. I am trying to be there for the few friends I do have around me but I am finding it very difficult to follow along right now. Not there fault I do wish i could be there more but right now I just don't have the energy. not that I don't love you guys but I just have enough energy to focus on my family and thats it.

Basically I am trying to focus on what I need to do to make life better for the people in my family and myself. Trying to make myself healthy and happy again is a big job. It's been a long hard struggle and I am sorry if some people don't like the person I have become but being fucked with enough makes you not trust anyone and do whatever you have to to protect yourself and the ones you love. Maybe this stone thing is just my bodies way of getting rid of all the damn poisons i have held inside all these years.

Here is to being pain free soon. Wish me luck. luv ya.

congrats babyd on the new addition I know you wheren't expecting it to happen like this but I know you are going to find it fits perfectly.

congrats to ms poma and here little friend on their new home. I hope it finally brings you peace.

congrats to Soul and the girls for getting the T1 back i know you have been wanting it for a while.

Congrats to zeph for his new job.

MR Q get some balls.

Dark Sir and his queen and jester I would aprecate a quick hi I am alive sometime soon. Everyone has been looking for you.

posted by digitalsulis @ 9:10 PM 0 comments