Life With Sulis

The Road to Hell.... Soul used to say that having good intentions doesn't exscuse you from making the wrong decisions. I know that is true because no matter what my good intentions are I always pay for my decisions in the end. I'm sorry I have to leave like this. It was not how I wanted it to be. You have made me stronger then I have probably ever been and I thank you for that. I have to go no matter how badly my heart tells me to stay because there are things I have to take care of. I can't face them from here. So remember this one word for me even when I am not by your side. MINE

I had big plans for our future
Said I'd give you the whole world somehow
I tried makin' good on that promise
Thought I'd be so much further by now
Never could build you a castle
Even though you're the queen of my heart
But I've had the best of intentions from the start

Now some people think I'm a loser
'Cause I seldom get things right
But you make me feel like a winner
When you wrap me in your arms so tight
Please tell me you will remember
No matter how much I do wrong
That I had the best of intentions all along

Chorus:
I gave you a ring
And I promised you things
I always thought we'd do
But my best-laid plans
Slipped right through my hands
To show my love for you
And if you could read my heart
Then you'd know without exception
It was all with the best of intentions

Repeat Chorus

So here I am asking forgiveness
And praying that you'll understand
Don't think I take you for granted
Girl, I know just how lucky I am
Though you deserve so much better
You won't find devotion more true
'Cause I've had the best of intentions
Girl, I've had the best of intentions
Yes, I've had the best of intentions loving you.


You take care of what you need to take care of and don't be afraid to ask me if you need something. I may be 1000 miles away but I am still here for you.
Phx ready or not Here I come!

posted by digitalsulis @ 5:04 PM 0 comments

What could they mean I am an angel. And my basement uhmmm what basement there is nothing in there. I wouldn't look in the closet but hey I warned you if you did. I guess my being a girl who has been in a poly D/s relationship who likes to masterbate did my inante purity in. Oh well I am recovering my purity as we speak. giggles.

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
Category	Your Score	Average
Self-Lovin'	26.7% When I think about you - or anyone - I touch myself	62.2%
Shamelessness	31% Puts 'em on the glass	77.4%
Sex Drive	47.4% I got needs, baby, you gotta unnastan'!	75.6%
Straightness	8.9% Knows the other body type like a map	41.2%
Gayness	25% At least one weekend of ecstacy	80.3%
Fucking Sick	47.8% Don't look in the basement	88.4%
You are 31.97% pure Average Score: 70.2%
Take The Ultimate Purity Test and see how you match up!

posted by digitalsulis @ 12:43 PM 0 comments

I found this link on the ms boards very cute stuff all disguised or otherwise hidden vibrators.

posted by digitalsulis @ 11:00 PM 0 comments

10 things you know about me: Well one of my friends had this cute survey on his site and it made me start to wonder how you all see me. I know I am soooooo opening myself up to be kicked here. But hey curiosity killed the cat and this little pussy is seeing how many lives she can take out. If you are a member feel free to post your answer for everyone to see. If your not well feel free to send them to me and tell me if you want me to keep it private or post if for you. My email is liltexan81@hotmail.com. So here goes.

1. How did I meet you? Was it online/real life

2. Have you ever spent time with me in real life? How much?

3. Describe me in 4 adjectives.

4. If you and I could go do something together what would it be? Be Descriptive I like lots of details

5. You bought me something that you just know I am going to love describe it to me.

6. If you can change something about me what would it be?

7.There is a song out there who lyrics perfectly say what you have always wanted to say to me what song is it and who sings it?

8. If i couild know anything about you what should i know?

9. What have you always wanted me to know or wanted to say to me?

10.If you could see into my future where do you see me. next month? next year? 5 years from now? 10 year from now?

well have fun and i hope to see some answers. remember even if you are a member you can always asnwer me in private. I realize some of these things are a little personal.

ps. i may be out of communications for a couple of weeks at the most. I have audblogs so i will be checking in just in a different way. I will also try to check in wheenver i get around a computer. Wish me luck. You know my sorry ass needs it. Oh and Soul thanks for reminding me to relax and enjoy things. That girl said it perfectly just the way it sounds in my head when I want to tell people off. I'm cute,I have big tits,I'm funny and well-read,I'm a good writer,a good friend,i give great fucking head,I'm loyal and real,I have a pierced clit for fuck's sake! I'm quite sure I can get other dudes... check out the whole letter hereAll i have to do is look in front of me to realize I have been wasting alot of time worrying about something I should have turned my back on completly long ago. For the past few years I have been afraid to listen to my heart. because the last time I went against my gut feelings I got kicked in the ass, and rolled for everything I hold dear. That just was not going to happen again. So a huge wall got put up. Only sainthood kept my friends around. I was a bitch and I am sorry. I didn't want to let anyone else hurt me. In the words of my favorite sexy cowboy Garth Brooks.

"Standing Outside The Fire"

We call them cool
Those hearts that have no scars to show
The ones that never do let go
And risk the tables being turned

We call them fools
Who have to dance within the flame
Who chance the sorrow and the shame
That always comes with getting burned

But you've got to be tough when consumed by desire
'Cause it's not enough just to stand outside the fire

We call them strong
Those who can face this world alone
Who seem to get by on their own
Those who will never take the fall

We call them weak
Who are unable to resist
The slightest chance love might exist
And for that forsake it all

They're so hell-bent on giving ,walking a wire
Convinced it's not living if you stand outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

There's this love that is burning
Deep in my soul
Constantly yearning to get out of control
Wanting to fly higher and higher
I can't abide
Standing outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

I'm done with mearly surviving, this life is not a life without those people who make me burn inside. I am damn sure I am playing with fire. I don't know where I am going or how I am going to make this work. But here I come Phoenix. Sulis is jumping back into the fire!

posted by digitalsulis @ 8:38 PM 0 comments

oh my god I have to have this. Anyone want to get it for me you can order it here By it for someone you love. Its cute and hey you can leave it out and noone will suspect a thing. evil giggle


Naughty Rubber Ducky $ 39.95





Naughty Rubber Ducky!

Okay, it's reeeally cute. And it looks innocent, right? Sitting by your bathtub, or even next to your bed. Heck, you could leave it on your coffee table, and probably not even get a raised eyebrow.
But this little waterproof duck is not as innocent as it looks. In fact, it's quite a naughty ducky. When you pet it (squeeze its back), it starts to vibrate in some verrry interesting ways. You could use the bill for very focused stimulation, and there's lots of areas for more diffused sensations -- like the back of the head, neck or tail (the tail is especially fun, if a teensy bit disturbing, because you get to grab the head and use it as a handle.) It's also fun to use the head and tail together (head forward OR tail forward). A very versatile ducky, indeed and sure to get your lovee all a-quackin!


I Rub My Naughty Ducky is made from soft, bright yellow plastic. It uses 2 AA batteries, and requires a screwdriver (either kind) to change the batteries. It is waterproof (due to a rubber gasket; make sure you close it tightly!) and it floats. As a matter of fact, it can "swim" around the tub if you let it go while it's vibrating. Note that, while the vibrator is pretty quiet when used on land and cannot be heard when used with the water running in the shower, in a standard tub full of water it makes a much louder low rumble (as would any waterproof vibrator, it's physics!). 5" long (chest to tail), 2-3/4" wide at the top of the back, and 4-3/4" tall at the head; precise measurements are a bit difficult, since it's shaped like a duck, not a rectangle, but you get the picture. This is definitely a naughty little rubber ducky and makes a great gift and a must have for every fun loving couple's bathtub.

Naughty Rubber Ducky DT-BTT-bf-1503 $39.95

posted by digitalsulis @ 7:13 AM 0 comments

Ok its down to it. We are moving and its not going to be pretty. We are most likely going to be out of communication for about 2 weeks while we get settled down and everything set back up. We are shipping are computers out by ups. To make sure everything is functioning by the time we get there. I am working on getting storage for a month. we are putting everything in storage until we leave. Then we are going to stay with friends probably until school is out. which is 2 weeks.

The only difference will be if a job comes through in that time that says get here now. then off we go.
SO wish me luck and I will try to keep you all up to date.

love sulis

posted by digitalsulis @ 1:43 PM 0 comments

Had an interesting and very tense night last night. I admitted to something that has been an issue for me for amost 8 years. And I admitted it to the person themselves. If you really know me and know for whom I am talking about this is a huge thing. For years the fear was so strong I could not bring myself to talk without faltering. That fear although still there has changed a lot over the years. It has grown to respect. While I don't always agree with everything this person does and says I respect the positions and convictions they display.

I told him things last night that quite possibly only he and Digi know about me. Some of it for obvious reasons only he does. Thank you. Even though I was very embarrassed by what I said to you, It felt good at the same time. It felt really good to see you smile at me and to know that for some odd reason that night I held your attention for so long. I woke up this morning at 6 yes only 2 hours after I last spoke to you. I felt more alive and more happy then I have been in a long time. Thanks for reminding me what makes me tick.

posted by digitalsulis @ 7:10 AM 0 comments

Well somebody bought out all my stock(see side bar for link to my stock information). pouts. where is everybody anyways nobody is posting. i know everyone is busy but hey did you all forget about me. Anyways just this quick note. Soul is a doll and is gonna get me a copy of reunion signed for me. very cool if any of you live in New York or around there and want to have some fun (assuming you are into BDSM and most of you are)
May 16th Laura Antoniou will be signing her new book "The Reunion". from 7pm to 8:30pm at Purple Passion DV8
Its part of all the fun surrounding TesFest. Click here for more information on how you can join in on the fun! And those of you lucky ducks who get to go have fun for me. Unfortunetly moving and working are my priorities right now. Maybe next year. there is always hope.

posted by digitalsulis @ 11:20 AM 0 comments

This is my new blogchalk:
United States, Texas, New Braunfels, English, sulis, Female, 31-35, Bdsm, Vampires. :)

posted by digitalsulis @ 2:50 PM 0 comments