Friday, October 17, 2003

Woohooo It worked it worked. : You are now on digitalsulis.com. I'm so proud.

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

domain move: The blog will be moving here soon. You should be seeing the change sometime this week beginning of next week. The main news is that you will be getting to this site by go to www.digitalsulis.com also my email will change to sulis@digitalsulis.com so make a note. bye now back to work .

Monday, October 13, 2003

Write me a list; the distruction of a fairy tale: Heard this song and it made me think about why people just don't get it. I wasted ten years of my life because I was unable to tell someone what I desperately needed from them. I failed to communicate my needs and I failed to bounce back and redirect things when they started to go wrong. My depression made it worse created a cycle of a downward spiral as it where.(the following is a simplistic statement of what happened there are other factors but i choose not to address those here now)All I needed was a little attention, a little bit of damn I love it when you do that. A little less why don't you do this, and how come you didn't do that. Someone who thought the same things where important. I thought I had that at one point in the beginning. I needed to be the princess the queen, the women a man would walk 1000 miles just to be back together with. But that is just what it is a fairy tale. Things have become so bleak in today's world that most of my friends are afraid to marry. Afraid to have children. Things are soo screwed up and relationships never last why put yourself through it all.
Because there has to be hope or there just isnt any purpose for life.

10 years ago one word destroyed my fairytale. And it will be argued that a similar "lie" I told was its complete destruction some a couple of years ago. Somehow you have to put all that aside and learn from the mistakes. You have to move on and make things better now worse. Watching the words that come out of your mouth. Cause Love is a four letter word we all like to hear.

Artist: Rodney Atkins
Song: Honesty (Write Me A List)

Lyrics :

He said: "Just think it over, and write me a list,
"So we can figure out what we both deserve."
She hardly could believe it, that their love had come to this:
Dividing an' deciding his and hers.
But she grabbed a paper napkin, an' asked the waitress for a pen.
An' one by one, she wrote down what she wanted most from him.

"Honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust.
"A little less time for the rest of the world,
"And more for the two of us.
"Kisses each mornin', 'I love you's' at night,
"Just like it used to be.
"The way life was when you were in love with me."

She reached across the table an' placed it in his hand,
An' said: "You know this isn't easy for me."
As he thought about the new car, the house an' the land,
An' wondered what that bottom line would be.
An' a thousand other things that she'd want him to leave behind,
But he never dreamed he'd open up that napkin and find:

"Honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust.
"A little less time for the rest of the world,
"And more for the two of us.
"Kisses each mornin', 'I love you's' at night,
"Just like it used to be.
"The way life was when you were in love with me."

Well, he fought back the tears, as he looked in her eyes,
An' said: "I don't know where to start."
An' she said: "Everything on that list in your hand,
"Is hidden somewhere in your heart.

"Honesty, sincerity, just like it used to be.
"The way life was when you were in love with me."

Sunday, October 12, 2003

Some props:
I Think You're Beautiful: Amy Dalley.

You go to work.
I know that’s what a man’s supposed to do.
But sometimes you’re so tired when you get home,
You’re not much fun to talk to.
Saturdays, you kick that old lawn mower till it starts.
Then patiently you turn it off and on,
Dodgin' toys in the back yard.
You smile, when you pass the kitchen window.

And I, I think you’re beautiful.
My world would be an empty place,
Without your touch, without your face.
And I see the man you are,
An' everything you want to be,
And how you love the things,
That mean the most to me;
I think you’re beautiful.

You don’t mind,
When my sister calls me every Friday night,
About the time we turn the movie on,
Just to talk about her love life.
And your little boy says one day he’ll drink coffee just like you.
You say it makes you better knowing he,
Watches everything that you do.
Sometimes you don’t understand me but you try, and…

And I think you’re beautiful.
My world would be an empty place,
Without your touch, without your face.
And I see the man you are,
An' everything you want to be,
And how you love the things,
That mean the most to me;
I think you’re beautiful.

Instrumental break.

And I’m not sure why I deserve this life.
But I’m so thankful that it’s mine.

I think you’re beautiful.
My world would be an empty place,
Without your touch, without your face.
And I see the man you are,
And everything you want to be,
And how you love the things,
That mean the most to me;
I think you’re beautiful.

I think you’re beautiful. (Beautiful. Beautiful.)
Beautiful.